I Lost My Virginity While Traveling (finally)

[CaptainForehead]

I never told anyone until a couple of years ago, and the person who assaulted me when I was three was never dealt with. After the incident when I was locked inside a mans house, held down and abused I did try to kill myself in the weeks following. When I ended up in hospital, blood tests showed that I had chlamydia. Everyone assumed that I was just a wh***, and sadly since then I never had he heart to actually admit what happened, because my image as a human was already tarnished, I couldn’t let my parents go through anything like he pain I went through.

[No words for this]

 

[Georgie]

WTF. How do you know that it happened...? Do you remember ?

It’s my first ever memory, and it’s like it happened yesterday. Same person used to stick cutlery inside me and hold me under water again and again (water boarding) for hours at a time. I won’t ever forget those things. Sadly.

 

[CaptainForehead]

It’s my first ever memory, and it’s like it happened yesterday. Same person used to stick cutlery inside me and hold me under water again and again (water boarding) for hours at a time. I won’t ever forget those things. Sadly.

Holy mother of f***!
Water boarding a toddler?!

 

[CopeForLife]

3 years old?!

There are plenty of videos in a tor...

Not so rare as it should be.

 

[Georgie]

Holy mother of f***!
Water boarding a toddler?!

Sadly yes

 

[Armando Jose]

I have a girl friend that she is also suffer asperger syndrome and Georgie's coments are .....
Sorry for you. You have all my bless

 

[Calchas]

It’s my first ever memory, and it’s like it happened yesterday. Same person used to stick cutlery inside me and hold me under water again and again (water boarding) for hours at a time. I won’t ever forget those things. Sadly.

Your stories borderline with mythomania Georgie,but only you know the truth.

 

[CopeForLife]

I have a girl friend that she is also suffer asperger syndrome and Georgie's coments are .....
Sorry for you. You have all my bless

I won't say Aspergers is a "suffer" though

 

[Georgie]

Your stories borderline with mythomania Georgie,but only you know the truth.

I guess it could all sound made up. Lucky me, it’s all real and now after every bullshit experience I’ve endured in my life, I now have the last most enduring fucked up experience to top it off - losing my hair. Isn’t life just absolutely f*****g marvellous.

 

[Georgie]

I have a girl friend that she is also suffer asperger syndrome and Georgie's coments are .....
Sorry for you. You have all my bless

I inherited it from my father. It’s not the worst thing ever.

 

[Afro_Vacancy]

Fina ?

No.

I inherited it from my father. It’s not the worst thing ever.

Asperger's / autism by itself is fine. However, it can and is frustrating in combination with other ailments.

 

[CopeForLife]

I miss hair so so so much

you and bucky haven't provided any pics so far

 

[Calchas]

I guess it could all sound made up.

I knew a girl who was mythomaniac(i don't infer that you are,i'm just suspicious),and i was constantly at loss as to
what to believe from what she was saying.I was stunned by the physical reactions a made-up scenario in her mind could trigger.
She could start crying for something that never happened,and yet she was perceiving it as real.
I somehow envied her...She had the power to crash the banality of reality and get herself lost in imaginary narratives.
I wish i had such a superpower

 

[Afro_Vacancy]

@Afro_Vacancy yes, you do sound sweet by the sounds. In my expedience, the ones who seem to have lacked a female touch or attention always are. Almost timid, but appreciative.
My expeicne probably had a lot to do with my reasons for getting into stripping. This woman you describe sounds like she is empowered by her work, whereas I did it because I didn’t care about anything or anyone anymore, particularly myself. For me, I’d lost my virginity, technically when I was 3 years old. When I was 18, I was raped in my sleep. Then again that year, I was locked in someone’s house.. and it happened. My entire worth as a female had been eaten away by men who took what they wanted from me. I developed anorexia as a teen because all I ever saw was an abomination, and to fix that I felt I had to fix my appearance. Similarly, when I was 19, I had just come out of a physically abusive relationship, I didn’t have a job, I hated everything, and I thought “what do I do with myself? What am I good for?”, the first response in my mind was “giving your body away”. So I did, and I allowed men to degrade me daily, because it’s what I felt I was worth. I did however learn a lot from those expeicnes, and became somehow more resilient and street-smart from having to constantly watch my back for men who would follow/stalk me. I’m now kind of an inaffectionate b**ch. It’s sad how it’s ended now. I wish I could say I walked through the fire and came out stronger.

Thank you again for sharing. It's awful what you went through.

I'm glad that you feel that this forum is a safe enough space for you to discuss things. I am also glad that your perception is validated by the comments that followed on the next page, as opposed to idiots blaming you and telling you to get over it.

The men who did this to you are all awful, contemptuous human beings. I hope that something happens to them at some point.

Have you been able to find any solace in reading the numerous stories of other women that have been posted in the past year due to #metoo?

 

[CopeForLife]

wunt pictors or wut?

pictors

 

[sadila]

The men who did this to you are all awful, contemptuous human beings. I hope that something happens to them at some point.

Legend says men who usually do these kind of things to women actually become presidents & high profiles.
fucked up world

 

[CopeForLife]

I was talking about sex btw...

what?

 

[Calchas]

The men who did this to you are all awful, contemptuous human beings. I hope that something happens to them at some point.

I want to create a deadly virus that will only infect all the assholes and parasitic people in this world.

 

[CopeForLife]

I used the word "hair" but what I really meant was "sex". But "hair" "sex", at the end it's the same! (lol)

That was quite a complicated allegory though...

 

[Georgie]

Thank you again for sharing. It's awful what you went through.

I'm glad that you feel that this forum is a safe enough space for you to discuss things. I am also glad that your perception is validated by the comments that followed on the next page, as opposed to idiots blaming you and telling you to get over it.

The men who did this to you are all awful, contemptuous human beings. I hope that something happens to them at some point.

Have you been able to find any solace in reading the numerous stories of other women that have been posted in the past year due to #metoo?

To be honest, I felt like everyone who had ever been cat called or whilsteld at by a man jumped on the #metoo bandwagon and made it a bit of a joke. Women were talking about engaging in consensual sex then saying later that it was rape because they were both drunk and she regretted it later. It made me feel like my own experiences were trivialised.