She just was never that into the idea of you putting your penis inside of her.
It was there, but all very fragile, fleeting, because the sexual compatibility wasn't that strong.
And I'm convinced it has a lot to do with your looks, way more than personality and other variables that don't matter much in the end.
She snaps out of it for a second and looks at you, and she isn't sure anymore, you know that women don't get aroused that easily, right?
This happens very often to average guys, I have experienced those awkward situations, where the girl changes her mind.
I'm suddenly boring and unfunny, she pushes me back, because in the end, she never was that sure about letting me f*** her.
And when I looked back at our interactions, it was as clear as day. It was before my hair transplant or course.
I think you underestimate women's capacity to accept awkwardness, boringness and outward stupidity in a man she fancies.
Have you never listened to strangers? To men and women who are still in the process of courting?
I've heard some men talk and thought "man, how the f*** is she putting up with this, he sounds like a total moron."
And then you see the girl who's with him smile, being all playful, thinking he's the most interesting man in the world.