Haha seb I can relate, I remember being at school in the fields at break at the age of 8, everyone was playing kiss chase and stuck in the mud, i was playing and then i went and sat on the sidelines and started watching, i can remember at that age thinking it was all so fleeting. Some girl came over who had playing an tried to get me back involved and i can remember instinctively knowing i didnt want to. I didnt realise at the time but that was a behavioural decision i was making that would play out through so much of my life. Ive always been an outsider since