What Has Prevented You From Killing Yourself?

shookwun

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Not always. I liken sleeping around to masturbation. When you you want to get off, you have a wank.
Now that can get boring. But with a person it's not.(most of the time).
It doesn't always have to be about love. And no, i'm not talking about sex for hire.
It gets old after awhile, considering the amount of time, and energy you exert towards finding a random partner to get off with. relationships in general take a lot of effort to build, and maintain. Jerking off tends to get repetitive, and like finding random partners can be more depressive, and lonely in the long run.

Finding a partner is much more fulfilling, seeing as almost all men are not casanovas, so finding a new partner every week is out of the picture for most men.. Even then, when I was finding a lay every week, it's bullshit, and not worth the time, and energy. going on dates, and doing the same mundane routines just to get off leaves me empty, and more lonely

It's a fantasy if you believe that you will get laid on every first date, all through it happens. From my experience, it never went any where. In fact, I had more respect for the women that wanted to wait, and have sex sober then the ones that submitted to me upon meeting, and barely knowing each other.


It depends where you live though. Living in a big metropolis city it is much easier to live the single life style. Going out every weekend, and meeting new people are at arms reach if you want to put in the effort.
 
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In defence of shitty jobs:

The happiest time of my life was in a shitty job. I was working in retail twenty-five hours a week in a min wage job, but I was 19 and had just moved out for the first time. There were four of us in the house and we all pretty close. By day everyone would congregate in the living room and play video games, or if the weather was nice we'd go out to the park and play football. At least twice a week we'd have a house party and try and get laid. I say tried because this was at an age where we were all bad with women and it would take a dozen house parties to make a single hook up. But we didn't care, we were young and having the time our lives.

All in all, I think a shitty job isn't so bad if you have other things in life.
 
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I can't take credit for my mindset, it's how I always was but thanks. I appreciate everyone has their own internal battles. I would say be your own best version, physically and mentally. The only competition should be within you. This isn't a cope because I am encouraging others to maximise their potential, far from giving up. At the same time I am saying learn to love yourself and to help others- it's probably the most important step.

There's some meaning in life for everyone, you just got to find it mate.



Probably a worse idea. Your parents would be devastated, thinking was it murder, suicide or is he still alive somewhere out there? Think of all the time the police will talk about a lead in the investigation and talk to them. They may think you're trapped somewhere and helpless if you choose to disappear for example.
I'm the last person in the world to use the word 'cope'.

I think we're all coping 90% of the time. Theres no shame in it.

As for the suicide - it will look like a climbing/camping accident - but I don't know if I'll ever do it.
 

kj6723

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In defence of shitty jobs:

The happiest time of my life was in a shitty job. I was working in retail twenty-five hours a week in a min wage job, but I was 19 and had just moved out for the first time. There were four of us in the house and we all pretty close. By day everyone would congregate in the living room and play video games, or if the weather was nice we'd go out to the park and play football. At least twice a week we'd have a house party and try and get laid. I say tried because this was at an age where we were all bad with women and it would take a dozen house parties to make a single hook up. But we didn't care, we were young and having the time our lives.

All in all, I think a shitty job isn't so bad if you have other things in life.

It makes sense though that 1)financial situation and 2)aesthetics will be huge determinants in one's quality of life in modern first world culture

But you're right, there are many variables that determine satisfaction with circumstances: attitude, perspective, health, and quality of people around you among them

and no matter what you have you will always have problems, even huge ones, as we can see from many tragic cases of celebrity breakdowns
 
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It makes sense though that 1)financial situation and 2)aesthetics will be huge determinants in one's quality of life in modern first world culture

But you're right, there are many variables that determine satisfaction with circumstances: attitude, perspective, health, and quality of people around you among them

and no matter what you have you will always have problems, even huge ones, as we can see from many tragic cases of celebrity breakdowns
Sure Britney Spears was another good example: good looking, wealthy, talented - and yet she was falling apart from the inside. I think we often make the mistake of thinking money and looks will cure all our ills but we are mistaken in thinking so.
 

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Sure Britney Spears was another good example: good looking, wealthy, talented - and yet she was falling apart from the inside. I think we often make the mistake of thinking money and looks will cure all our ills but we are mistaken in thinking so.
It's human nature to never be truly happy. We will always find things that we'd like to improve. That is why the human race is where it is at today. If Tesla, Einstein etc where truly happy with everything in their life they would never pursue their dreams and change humankind forever.
But there is a difference between being truly happy and content.
To be content you need to have your bases covered: Enough money to live comfortably, a decent job, sex on a regular basis. If you don't have these things covered you will never be content.
When you're disfigured the last part could be difficult, and that would make anyone unhappy.
 

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What keeps me from killing myself is my family and girlfriend, I couldn't do that to them. Another reason is that I have begin to believe in karma and reincarnation. The third reason is fear, fear of failing and fear of the pain. Some days I wish so much that I was not in this life anymore though. this baldness-sh*t has really messed up my life..
 

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tbh I want to live out of suitcase (god thanks my job lets me do this) mostly in reclusion, not live for a long time in one country, buy/rent a motorcycle (I solo-travelled Asia on it, it is insane experience) and etc

want to have just one bag and backpack with only things I need (laptop, clothes, bank cards)

but need to build some budget first (~15-20k$), fix some health problems (got some problems with teeth recently, performed double root canal treatment, hell)

also have a couple of ideas for startup but need to obtain a lot of knowledge for this at first since I lost 3 years because of depression and anxiety of hair/bones quality and a bit behind

so this bother my mind now, no time for suicide at this moment
 

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My family is the only thing. without them, I would be dead. they all love me so much. sometimes I spite them for this.
 

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Bucky, you know we all love you too. Glad you got a new puppy to fill your void.

hey Doctor, just wanted to say I appreciate how you remember things about people and give supportive encouraging advice. it's always nice to hear from you. thank you bud. :)
 

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I totally agree, though I think you overstate the impact of the financial stuff upon a person's overall quality of life. No doubt, a 6 story manor house and a mint green Mercedes is preferable to rotting in poverty on a council estate, but there's a point when diminishing returns start to set in and the cash just doesn't do it anymore. A lot of studies have been done on this stuff and most concur that when you get past $70,000 or so annually, the extra dough adds virtually nothing to a person's happiness. A comfortable middle class income, that's enough for me. Health/looks and social success is far more important in my eyes. A girl I can snuggle up on the sofa with, a group of good friends and an attractive face and body that I can look in the mirror and be proud of, that's what'd do it for me. To answer the OP's question, the reason I haven't killed myself is predominantly practical. I simply don't have access to a reliable enough means of completing the act. A knife to the wrist is messy, painful and more likely to put you in a permanent arm brace than a coffin. Same with a noose/rope. If that goes wrong, you'll be lucky to escape with only brain damage. Worst case you could wind up paralysed. The only way I'm ending it is with Nembutal, through a formal medical body in either Belgium or Switzerland. It's the only 100% reliable method. Quick, peaceful and painless. I intend to pull the cord on my 40th birthday. Once I've finished my PhD and written a couple of novels I'm happy with - I've had a few cracks already, but none have been much good.

I thought recently about most reliable suicide method... Which will give 100% chance to end it without being paralyzed of lost a limb.

Railway.

Just put head onto this – 100% chance.
 

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If I ever need to commit suicide, I would settle for euthanasia in one of the legal states. I want to just go in my sleep and not have to worry if I fail.
 

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I like to fight even if the odds are not on my favor.
 

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I totally agree, though I think you overstate the impact of the financial stuff upon a person's overall quality of life. No doubt, a 6 story manor house and a mint green Mercedes is preferable to rotting in poverty on a council estate, but there's a point when diminishing returns start to set in and the cash just doesn't do it anymore. A lot of studies have been done on this stuff and most concur that when you get past $70,000 or so annually, the extra dough adds virtually nothing to a person's happiness. A comfortable middle class income, that's enough for me. Health/looks and social success is far more important in my eyes. A girl I can snuggle up on the sofa with, a group of good friends and an attractive face and body that I can look in the mirror and be proud of, that's what'd do it for me. To answer the OP's question, the reason I haven't killed myself is predominantly practical. I simply don't have access to a reliable enough means of completing the act. A knife to the wrist is messy, painful and more likely to put you in a permanent arm brace than a coffin. Same with a noose/rope. If that goes wrong, you'll be lucky to escape with only brain damage. Worst case you could wind up paralysed. The only way I'm ending it is with Nembutal, through a formal medical body in either Belgium or Switzerland. It's the only 100% reliable method. Quick, peaceful and painless. I intend to pull the cord on my 40th birthday. Once I've finished my PhD and written a couple of novels I'm happy with - I've had a few cracks already, but none have been much good.
I'm just going to a freezing mountain and settling down just before sun down. I'll take a few sleeping pills and watch my last sun set from the mountain and slowly fall asleep.

It wont be the sleeping pills that will kill me - it will be the cold. I'll essentially freeze to death in my sleep.

Its pretty hard to f*** this kind of suicide up.
 

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the weather in UK must make people suicidal. I was gonna kill myself a few years ago because of constant panic attacks, anxiety, depression and psychosis. I kept holding on and got on medication and got a psychologist, now im all good. I think once you go through it and survive you're all good.
 
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tellersquill

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the weather in UK must make people suicidal. I was gonna kill myself a few years ago because of constant panic attacks, anxiety, depression and psychosis. I kept holding on and got on medication and got a psychologist, now im all good. I think once you go through it and survive you're all good.
Can weather make you kill yourself?

Its pretty cold here but there are far colder places in Scandinavia, Russia, Canada etc.
 
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