What Has Prevented You From Killing Yourself?

[shookwun]

cannot stop looking at this slutty face and make up... (eyebrows is a way too thick on 1st photo tho)

Wouldn't mind shooting a a wad of baby batter all over her face, and hair. Knight her afterwards on each shoulder with my manhood, commencing a job well done.

 

[CopeForLife]

Wouldn't mind shooting a a wad of baby batter all over her face, and hair. Knight her afterwards on each shoulder with my manhood, commencing a job well done.

rate this boobs aesthetics....

https://www.instagram.com/p/BMp_JtsB23S/

https://www.instagram.com/p/BMmekhyBe7f/

https://www.instagram.com/p/BMik5xFB5lu/

 

[kj6723]

rate this boobs aesthetics....

https://www.instagram.com/p/BMp_JtsB23S/

https://www.instagram.com/p/BMmekhyBe7f/

https://www.instagram.com/p/BMik5xFB5lu/

 

[CopeForLife]

Countdown to suicide will begin if I will not wake up tomorrow with this face.

 

[rafiles]

What keeps you going when you are feeling at your absolute worst?

In the UK, suicide is the biggest killer of men under 50. All of the things we are warned about: speeding, heart disease, violence, cancer, and so on - and yet it is suicide that is the biggest threat to young men.

And yet nobody talks about it.

Suicide and suicidal thoughts plague a great amount of men throughout the western world, but still, nobody talks about it. Suicide remains taboo, something that shall not be mentioned, and in doing so we allow this modern phenomenon to continue.

Personally, I've battled suicidal thoughts since I was in my early twenties. Even today I can not rule out suicide as my choice of death within the next decade. There are many things that encourage me to do it: relative poverty, no wife, ageing and hair loss, living in a world that is increasingly cruel to one another, and so on.

But it isn't even these things that specifically make me want to do it - sometimes there is a general urge not to be alive that goes beyond depression and sadness. Just a strange yearning to be free from life.

So it makes me want to ask you: What keeps you going? What makes you not kill yourself?


(Note: please lets not be childish in this one by encouraging people to kill themselves).

Its forbidden to kill myself (Islam)
There are people with no eyes, ears, arms etc, and they dont kill themselves. You want it because of hair. Its a psychological problem.

If a woman laughs at you, then you would maybe think she makes fun of you. But what if she likes you. How would you know that.

 

[buckthorn]

Being a coward. And my dog, family.

I couldn't relate to this more. you're a good person EL. I am sorry you're sad. I know we are all just an "internet family", but we are here for you!

 

[hellouser]

Going out and being remembered as a selfish coward. That's not a legacy I would want to leave behind. However I've never actually thought of suicide, but that's how I view it.

 

[buckthorn]

You mean *casualness* you ignorant cretin. Paul may well be low in stature, but at least he's not got low IQ.

dude. do you really think Pas could ever mean any harm?? relax my brothaaaaaa

 

[buckthorn]

Wouldn't mind shooting a a wad of baby batter all over her face, and hair. Knight her afterwards on each shoulder with my manhood, commencing a job well done.

ahahahaha... you site beautiful erie music from resident evil, then talk about "shooting baby batter" all over some girls face. You're one f*****g versatile being my friend.

 

[hairblues]

Wouldn't mind shooting a a wad of baby batter all over her face, and hair. Knight her afterwards on each shoulder with my manhood, commencing a job well done.

another great line by Shook--lol i think we start to take his genius lines for granted.
this is a gem.

 

[buckthorn]

another great line by Shook--lol i think we start to take his genius lines for granted.
this is a gem.

Agreed. there is some super smart people on this site, and Shook is definitely one of them.

 

[davesmith420]

I have struggled with self confidence issues all throughout my life even before my hair loss. Personally I have had thoughts about killing myself (even before hair loss) but I never went through with it. I would never want to put my mother through it.

More recently the work I have been doing in my field (I'm a speech-language pathology graduate student) has been keeping those feelings away. Having parents of clients I have worked with thanking me and telling me about how much their child has succeeded since working with me puts a smile on my face. I love knowing that my little pathetic *** has had a positive impact on someone else's life.

 

[Grasshüpfer]

having plumbed the shiny depths of the hell that is Norwood cemetery, can put my previous lifestyle into context.

I think the fear of falling is usually more painful than the fall itself. Same waiting if finasteride does something.

 

[Goldee Lox]

i would never kill myself - i don't really have a big group of friends, and spend most of my time working - it is a job i enjoy so it is fun for me; i'm single and live alone, and don't really have any impulse to go and get hitched or hook up - not because i'm depressed or anything, but simply because i don't really care to get involved. I think my life would probably depress a lot of people, but i actually am quite happy so happiness is a very individual thing.
The main reason i don't think I would ever consider killing myself is that if you are at that stage, imagine what you can do? It could be f*****g epic - i mean if i ever got to that point of seriously considering offing myself, i'd jump on a plane to a foreign country; heck i'd go to Syria, why the f*** not? Just live on the edge. If your life doesn't matter than what exactly is holding you back? You're practically indestructible at that point. Instead of suicide, just try to speed up your death by doing a bunch of crazy sh*t you would never do before - that's the way to go; at least you'd be remembered as a f*****g badass and not a sad person who couldn't take it anymore.

Word.

 

[Roberto_72]

Now some would not believe this, but apparently even the tendency to commit suicide has some genetic implications.

Basically it is not that you are suicidal only because you have desperate thoughts. A component of the drama is that you have desperate thoughts because you have depressive genes.

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/m/pubmed/11843783/

This particular study suggests that genetics play an "important role" in suicide.

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/m/pubmed/19306130/?i=2&from=/11843783/related

This second one says that studies have already underlined the importance of a diathesis or genetic link to suicide that is independent of the underlying psychiatric disorder.

You see, these genetic study may one day show why certain people face disease with a good predispositions. And maybe also why some of us do not care about their own hair loss. Maybe they have it in their genes that these problems do not touch their mood, and they say we are crazy to care

 

[tellersquill]

Now some would not believe this, but apparently even the tendency to commit suicide has some genetic implications.

Basically it is not that you are suicidal only because you have desperate thoughts. A component of the drama is that you have desperate thoughts because you have depressive genes.

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/m/pubmed/11843783/

This particular study suggests that genetics play an "important role" in suicide.

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/m/pubmed/19306130/?i=2&from=/11843783/related

This second one says that studies have already underlined the importance of a diathesis or genetic link to suicide that is independent of the underlying psychiatric disorder.

You see, these genetic study may one day show why certain people face disease with a good predispositions. And maybe also why some of us do not care about their own hair loss. Maybe they have it in their genes that these problems do not touch their mood, and they say we are crazy to care

My situation is a little different because I'm not depressed but I do want to kill myself at some point.

Its like I don't want to die naturally from a stroke, heart attack or cancer. I would rather do it in a nice way by myself.

And I just don't want to live a long life - maybe another 2 or 3 years of adventures and then I can die.



But yes, I bet there is a genetic element to depressive behaviour. I'm a big believer in epigenetics - that we have a predisposition to certain ways but it is our environment that can exasperate or nullify them.

 

[blackg]

Wouldn't mind shooting a a wad of baby batter all over her face, and hair. Knight her afterwards on each shoulder with my manhood, commencing a job well done.

How could she say no to this!

 

[EvilLocks]

I couldn't relate to this more. you're a good person EL. I am sorry you're sad. I know we are all just an "internet family", but we are here for you!

Thank you, buckthorn I surely find a lot of comfort in this forum and It's members, also one of the reasons I haven't killed myself.

 

[tellersquill]

I think christmas is gonna be harsh on me (does this sentence make sense? Can christmas be harsh on sb? whatever...) I hope @hairblues, @EvilLocks and @buckthorn (and the others) will virtually provide me some comfort...

I stash up a load of films that I really want to see and get in all my favourite treats in and just enjoy myself.

I now look forward to Christmas

 

[DoctorHouse]

My situation is a little different because I'm not depressed but I do want to kill myself at some point.

Its like I don't want to die naturally from a stroke, heart attack or cancer. I would rather do it in a nice way by myself.

And I just don't want to live a long life - maybe another 2 or 3 years of adventures and then I can die.



But yes, I bet there is a genetic element to depressive behaviour. I'm a big believer in epigenetics - that we have a predisposition to certain ways but it is our environment that can exasperate or nullify them.

That is exactly why you are not suicidal right now, you are not depressed enough to end it.