What Has Prevented You From Killing Yourself?

[blackg]

Or should I say I approve...

Hahaha.. I like your humor, too.

 

[CaptainForehead]

I've had a fairly sh*t life, but it can be sporadically good. If 80% is sh*t then you live for the 20% that's good.!If it's all sh*t then I don't know what to say... I'll never rule out suicide if things get really sh*t and there's no hope on the horizon.
I'm single, 30, living in a small flat, working a low paying job, an incompetent superior colleague who treats me like a dog, significant frontal recession and thinning, waiting for a probably hair transplant to grow in.
What gives me hope is a plan for a career change, my current hair transplant, maybe another hair transplant and future treatments, my students, a handful of good (unfortunately NW1) friends and my dog. Love my dog. Also distract myself with games, studying, politics and alcohol.
What terrifies me most is that finasteride/dutasteride will stop working before Replicel or Tsuji get their neeew treatments out.

For me, it's losing myself once in a while in fantasy by binge watching tv serials. Enjoying the escapades of Patrick Jane. Living with Chuck Bartowski. Laughing at Red Foreman being a hardass. I manage my depression by binge watching certain favorite serials once every few months. Without the escape provided to these fantasy worlds, I would have killed myself. There were no torrents in my 20s. No binge watching. My quality of life as a result was quite bad. I remember a period when the only thing I would look forward to the next day was a repeat of Seven Days. That hour was the only thing which made life bearable.

Anyone watch Cloud Atlas? That scene where the guy shot himself, it touched me deeply. I found myself crying. Suicidal thoughts are always at the border, trying to get in.

 

[Nadester]

For me its simple.

I wouldn't get to see tomorrow.

There are not many things in life that are in my control. Ending it is yours.

 

[hairblues]

there is a f*****g gaping chasm between feeling suicidal/depressed, and actually ending your life

i'm not talking about some half-arsed overdosing on some pills attempt either, i mean 100%, no chance of failure suicide (shotgun to the head, jump off a building)

i agree with this.
its not a high adventure with a crash landing like a thrill movie.

it's ugly, brutal, desperate and very sad.

its literally being in a place that is so painful to exist you want to cease to exist...i don't think if someone is in that head space the person would think about a bucket list of fun exciting stuff.
maybe someone who finds out they have a terminal illness.

I have honest to God dark moments/days/months and even still never wanted to actually kill myself...i had where i did not want to face the world or get out of bed etc but this is different i think.

 

[blackg]

...i don't think if someone is in that head space the person would think about a bucket list of fun exciting stuff.
maybe someone who finds out they have a terminal illness.

I agree with this. A suicidal person is in no headspace to think of a bucket list of fun and edgy things to do.

If he/she is able to think of these things then he/she is already on the mend.

 

[tellersquill]

I agree with this. A suicidal person is in no headspace to think of a bucket list of fun and edgy things to do.

If he/she is able to think of these things then he/she is already on the mend.

I can.

One moment I think death will be quite nice and that I would like to depart from the struggle. And then the next I'm thinking about renting a motorbike and driving across Vietnam meeting lots of people and seeing the country side.

 

[resu]

For me, it's losing myself once in a while in fantasy by binge watching tv serials. Enjoying the escapades of Patrick Jane. Living with Chuck Bartowski. Laughing at Red Foreman being a hardass. I manage my depression by binge watching certain favorite serials once every few months. Without the escape provided to these fantasy worlds, I would have killed myself. There were no torrents in my 20s. No binge watching. My quality of life as a result was quite bad. I remember a period when the only thing I would look forward to the next day was a repeat of Seven Days. That hour was the only thing which made life bearable.

Anyone watch Cloud Atlas? That scene where the guy shot himself, it touched me deeply. I found myself crying. Suicidal thoughts are always at the border, trying to get in.

I don't feel anything when I watch TV or movies, I would get more enjoyment by staring at a blank wall and fantasizing where I would be if some things in my life were different. When I was younger I did like to watch them, I guess because I still hadn't realise I was balding back then and my hair was still thick my brain could connect to what I was watching, now I don't like tv, games, movies and music is nothing special for me. No doubt low testosterone has had an impact too.

 

[CopeForLife]

I can.

One moment I think death will be quite nice and that I would like to depart from the struggle. And then the next I'm thinking about renting a motorbike and driving across Vietnam meeting lots of people and seeing the country side.

Vietnam is hardest mode on motorbike.

 

[tellersquill]

Vietnam is hardest mode on motorbike.

Good - I have nothing to lose and everything to gain.

Even if I do die in the next few years, at least I had fun before ending it all.

 

[CopeForLife]

Good - I have nothing to lose and everything to gain.

Even if I do die in the next few years, at least I had fun before ending it all.

I don't mind to die but I do not want to lose a limb.

 

[Dench57]

I can.

One moment I think death will be quite nice and that I would like to depart from the struggle. And then the next I'm thinking about renting a motorbike and driving across Vietnam meeting lots of people and seeing the country side.

You're not suicidal. You're romanticizing suicide.

 

[tellersquill]

You're not suicidal. You're romanticizing suicide.

What is the romance you talk of?

 

[Baldingat188]

well maybe naively having hope for the future...

there is still a lot I have yet to experience. maybe I will check back in at 40 once I have done some of the things I want to....

 

[tellersquill]

Nobody is afraid he made do it just to prove is point?

No, No. Please don't worry about me. I'm not doing it this year anyway.

And suicide isn't a bad thing. Its just someone deciding not to live, and that isn't so bad.

 

[tellersquill]

I think the most interesting thing about this thread is that there aren't too many people on this forum who actually want to kill themselves.

Because there are so many who sad, bitter, and depressed I thought there would be a great deal of people who wanted to suicide.

In many ways I'm glad my assumption is incorrect and I'm happy so many of you still have something to live for.

Lots of love for the nice things said.

 

[Roberto_72]

It's sebum, most definitely. I think I have overdosed on sebum.

Do you use ketoconazole? Since I have been using it, my barber has been desperate because scalp and hair are too dry. It really helps with hateful sebum...

 

[Roberto_72]

Enjoying the escapades of Patrick Jane.

I have loved Theresa Lisbon for years.

(By the way that is no way to keep a gun. She would have already shot her own foot if it were loaded)

 

[N003]

Stupid thread really

Im bald im NW3 Vertex with bald tonsure...... BUT i still love my self!!!

I am what i am and someone who don't respect me can go home

What keeps you going when you are feeling at your absolute worst?

In the UK, suicide is the biggest killer of men under 50. All of the things we are warned about: speeding, heart disease, violence, cancer, and so on - and yet it is suicide that is the biggest threat to young men.

And yet nobody talks about it.

Suicide and suicidal thoughts plague a great amount of men throughout the western world, but still, nobody talks about it. Suicide remains taboo, something that shall not be mentioned, and in doing so we allow this modern phenomenon to continue.

Personally, I've battled suicidal thoughts since I was in my early twenties. Even today I can not rule out suicide as my choice of death within the next decade. There are many things that encourage me to do it: relative poverty, no wife, ageing and hair loss, living in a world that is increasingly cruel to one another, and so on.

But it isn't even these things that specifically make me want to do it - sometimes there is a general urge not to be alive that goes beyond depression and sadness. Just a strange yearning to be free from life.

So it makes me want to ask you: What keeps you going? What makes you not kill yourself?


(Note: please lets not be childish in this one by encouraging people to kill themselves).

One word:

Pussy!

 

[blackg]

Stupid thread really

Im bald im NW3 Vertex with bald tonsure...... BUT i still love my self!!!

I am what i am and someone who don't respect me can go home.

You will probably be alone for the rest of your life.

 

[blackg]

One word:
Pussy!

One word for you: Moron!