-For one.. Regardless of all reasons, I simply don't like the way it looks. the stupid horseshoe, bladness, difffusion.. it just looks pathetic and weird to me. and especially I don't like the way it looks on me.
-I love hair. Even before baldness I was a freak for hair. I don't know I just love the texture and the flow. and everything. just something about it. It's a part of my identity.
-I have never experienced having a full head of hair as an adult and I need to know what that's like. When I was a teenager, I lived with my grandparents. I wanted to grow my hair long but my grandma wouldn't let me. She wanted me to look like a "fine young man" and always made me get a haircut. When I became around the age of 16 and 17, she gave me a bit more freedom with my hair. BUT, by that time, I HAD ALREADY STARTED LOSING IT!!!!!!
So, you see. I have never in my life had the experience of having a full head of hair along with the freedom of being able to do WHATEVER THE f*** I WANT WITH IT at the same time...
I have always had f*****g hair compromises. And as an adult, when I finally gained the freedom to be able to do anything I want with a part of my own damn body! I didn't even have it all!!!!!!
I would've tried short and long and having a mohawk, etc.. I NEEDED that. I needed to go through phases and develope mysef and try different hairstyles. but that was taken away from me before my time! I am like a ghost that stays on Earth to reconcile unfinished business before moving on.
- I had longish hair when i was 17 to 18. But it was hiding my recession. most people were unaware I was balding but it was noticeable if I went swimming or the wind blew. Another reason for my obsession is that my hair is curly, poofy, and unique. when its long enough, it's not like common hair or something. In high school I was somewhat notorious for my "jew fro" it was like my trademark. Here's a picture of my drivers license photo.
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I want to get back to that. To my hairstyle that I had as a teenager, except this time without recession being covered underneath!!
I want to able to enjoy the wind blowing in my face, something I can't even remember.
-When I was 18. I got a haircut because I was about to leave to bootcamp(recruiters said it would be easier and that drill instructors make fun of those who show up with long hair). My family noticed my receding hairline and my mom, dad, and grandpa all LAUGHED at me together. They seriously think an 18 year old starting the baldness process is funny?!! What is possibly funny about a part of my body dying against my will..
I will never forget that day! I resent them for that!!
I live abroad now and the last time I was home was last summer and I was very bald then. Family hasn't seen me for a year, and I'm going back home in August where I will flaunt my reclaimed glory and youth!!!
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youth. Hairloss to me represents death and mortality. It disturbs me to see it.
-I'm tired of seeing my genetic inferiority when I look in the mirror.
Hairloss is associated with increased risk for heart disease!
https://www.bbc.com/news/amp/health-42164898
Oh, and you know what else could give heart issues, Male Hormones.
"A direct association between testosterone and heart disease has never been established, but for many years, doctors have suspected that a link exists. The reasoning goes like this: men have much more testosterone than women, and they develop heart disease about 10 years before their female counterparts. Like other muscles, cardiac cells have receptors that bind male hormones. Animals that are given testosterone develop enlarged hearts. Athletes who abuse testosterone and other androgenic steroids have a sharply increased risk of high blood pressure, heart attack, and stroke. And in high doses, testosterone can have a negative effect on cardiac risk factors, including HDL ("good") cholesterol levels."
Unattractive traits are unattractive for a reason and I wouldn't be surprised if hairloss is an evolutionary signal of men who are particularly sensitive to the negative effect of androgens...
That is why they must be destroyed, I must destroy androgens before they destroy me.. I will murder them all like they murdered my hair!!!!! I wrote also previously (pg. 40) my viewpoints on testosterone.
I cannot accept any baldness on my head!!
-I'm 27, I was balding during the prime of my life. years that I'll never get back. I honestly probably would've been fine before with a permanent norwood 2, but after experiencing balding for so long. I need ALL my hair. It's my way of making up for lost time.
- Maybe I could maintain with spironolactone or something.. but I'm scared, even if I can I will still be worried and checking the mirror constantly to see if I lost any ground. If I were to wake up with morning wood or something, it would stress me out. With my extreme regimen and knowing that I have close to no testosterone or DHT,, I feel safe. It's really nice to have a guarantee that I won't lose any more hair.
- and It's just really cool and satisfying to be able to regrow hair from such a state of former baldness. Many don't know it's possible. It is literally my genetic destiny to bald written in my DNA and I feel good defying that as much as possible. I don't want to be just another victim of an inevitable process with a typical male hairline. This asserts my dominance over this disease.
- and I'm curious and passionate. I want to know my maximum hair potential.
I will do what I have to do to reach this goal. Nothing now can relinquish the undying flame inside me!