Your poster name is pretty ironic considering your attitude; Epictetus said 'If a man isn't happy, its his own fault.'
I dont know your personal situation, or the objective reality of your life. But fundementally, your life is your life, and you can change it if you want. You can choose to blame your hair loss on damaging your life - but hair loss doesnt seem to damage (at least all the bald(ing) guys in the world who seem to be able to get on with it.
Im not saying that hair loss isn't crippling - it is. If your limbs give us mobility and physicallity, then our hair gives us our looks and our aesthetic element. However, whilst losing hair can be understandably crippling its only part of the picture. I dont know. I dont know your situation. To be honest I dont give a sh*t. That attitude isnt going to get you anyway. You need to pull yourself together and stop being such a pussy. Thats the hard truth.
I will concede - I dont know how I will deal with future when it comes to my hair loss. Picturing my self with a horseshoe - with my top diffusing - fills me with great foreboding. Its definitely a dark and scary thought. I do appreciatte that being completely bald or obvoiusly thinning must be a whole different ball game to people in my position, who are on the way to that, but still have a few years. Compared to some of the joke posters on here who are moaning - but are more or less paraniod or have had absolutely minimum nw1 loss - I have lost a fair amount on the sides, and from the sides, if I pull my hair back, I can see it creeping upwards in a line. Hairloss has already reduced my attraction by a few notches. I used to feel an 8 or 9 - but now I feel more of 7, sometimes a 6 on a bad day.
But f*** it. What gets me through is the fact that there are plenty of bald guys who look good bald. Its not balding per se that is the problem, its your other physical areas, and your mind obvously. Hope you can pick yourself up. It aint that bad.