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i think i have that too, but all i got was a diagnosis of "anxiety" from a primary care physician. though my fears are more about suddenly dying and heart related things. i used to have periods where i had palpitations and i cudnt stop having them because i was sitting there anxious and paranoid about having them, i would constantly worry about the next one, which ironically made me kept having them. if i drink too much caffeine i'll panic. and i'm anxious as f*** about using the bathroom, im terrified of kidney issues and i literally get so scared i feel lightheaded while peeing.I don't have social anxiety. Generalized anxiety disorder is basically that you are constantly afraid of something bad happening to you or loved ones, wether it be disease, accidents or violence. Your brain is constantly on high gear and making up the worst possible scenarios, for instance I recently went to the cinema after not going for years because I was afraid of a terrorist attack. I forced myself to go with my bf but the whole time I was looking for the nearest escape route in case a gunman came in lmao. I could not enjoy the movie that much to say the least. I have also not been in an airplane in years because I am afraid of a plane crash or terrorism. Even going to the grocery store sometimes can mean trouble, I mean something bad can happen there as well. My biggest problem is still fear of disease, it has consumed my life since I was 17. I've been absolutely certain I've had multiple forms of cancer, that I was going to end in a wheel chair, that I'm going to have a stroke or a heart attack anytime soon... Just going to bed is a challenge, as I ask myself ''will I wake up tomorrow?" It's exhausting. Then there is the constant worry of something happening to my loved ones, something that has only been reinforced since I lost my uncle last year to a sudden disease. I probably worry about something 90% of my waking time lol.
Social anxiety I don't have, though. I'm fairly comfortable in social situations which I'm happy about
i looked it up i probably have sensorimotor OCD, where i'm uber fixated on every little feeling in my body, and its funny cuz it can make you actually FEEL things, when really theres nothing wrong and its totally imaginary. other day i thought i had to pee but i didn't and it got me scared as f*** that i had kidney stones or something lol.
and yea i know about trying to sleep with anxiety, my sensorimotor issues can f*** me hard there. laying there i start getting aware of heartbeat and coursing of blood and obsess over it, and i've spent hours laying there trying to ignore it to sleep to no avail
. not to mention when i have palpitations they'll keep me up for hours as well
