Soul Crushing Depression Because Your Youth Is Going Down The Drain

[blackg]

does that same offer go for me, big boy?

I guess.

 

[CaptainForehead]

This is just about the only place I feel like i can say these things, because “normal” people just don’t get it. They wake up and don’t even think about hair. It’s all I think about.

I have to avoid mirrors because I feel physically ill when I see this person that I don’t like or recognise staring back at me.
I drag fistfuls of hair from my head every day when I shower while I numbly count each strand to make sure that it’s still more than anyone should lose in a day.

I stare at other people with normal hair and try to remember what it felt like not to worry about losing it. I feel so jealous that I’m filled with indignant rage. I have to look down when anyone looks at me, because I don’t want them to see my frayed hairline, my eyes that are filled with indescribable agony.

I keep waitin and hoping and praying. The fact is that I am not even living. I exist on autopilot where my only reprieve in sleep, and even then I dream about all the things that follow me around in consciousness. I have this feeling of wrenching, pulling inside my like in being torn apart from the inside out. Sometimes I feel paralysed. Other times I feel numb. Every now and then I cry.

I don’t know how much longer I want to live a life like this. Holding on each day at a time, holding my breath for the moment when things aren’t so bad, maybe things will get better.
I can’t concentrate. I can’t socialise. I am not a person, but a shadow of a person. I hate everything about my existence. I used to beg the universe for mercy, please take these afflictions away from me, let me wake up as a normal person. Now I beg for death.

I cannot deny that it all sounds melodramatic and hyperbolised, but this is about as genuine as I am with anyone ever, because I don’t get to talk about this anywhere else.

I don’t know where I’m going with this.
I keep thinking that today is a good day to end it. I don’t have many reasons not to anymore.
I’m tired and I’ve no reasons left to be.
I don’t believe in anything anymore.
I only believe that life is cruel and pain is endless and inevitable.

I needed to say these things.
If you’ve read this far, thanks for your attention.

Hairloss or no hairloss, you're still hot.

/*This is also why incels are itching here*/

 

[Dontwannabeabetabob]

Good post, agree with everything you said here. i shamed baldingat18's attention whoring fake hair loss thread just as much.

thats also true about calling anyone who doesnt white knight an incel, way to not even focus on their actual arguments, and revealing of how much the world hates loser/low status men. if a mans ugly he can't be right! lawl. when in reality a lot of the time the smartest men are pretty ugly

I've started to pay more attention to the dynamics of attractiveness and social settings at college and it's f*****g brutal how some ugly men get treated. As if they're literal ghosts. The halo effect even applies on an anonymous online forum, as displayed here before our own eyes. Would be nice to be validated everyday in one way shape or form, be it social media or real life.

 

[Exodus2011]

Hairloss or no hairloss, you're still hot.

/*This is also why incels are itching here*/

nah evil was fine but she was cool. so nothing to call her out on

 

[blackg]

I actually really like patrick bateman. he's even one of my quotes. I don't even think he meant anything offensive, was just conveying his opinion on other things. I just think this thread spun out of control.

Yeah @Patrick_Bateman is alight, I guess. In small doses.

 

[Georgie]

Who attacked your a**h**?

Ha. Certainly not Patrick.

 

[Fkdup]

I wasn't aware I was on bodybuilding.com where we all post gym selfies tilting a leg up so our bums pop out more.

And you are supposed to be an intelligent and good guy here huh.
@Georgie please don't clarify yourself & argue with swines , you yourself would get dirty and pigs would be happy for any attention they get.
Who is who of HairLossTalk.com is on this thread and severely disappointed to read most of the stuff. I guess it's better not to interact much here. Being negative is one thing but its getting bloody poisionous here now a days. I thought we have bunch of sad & gud people here but no they are not sad they are sadistic

 

[Fkdup]

Thanks for all the dislikes, I will wear them as badge of honor.

 

[JeanLucBB]

And you are supposed to be an intelligent and good guy here huh.
@Georgie please don't clarify yourself & argue with swines , you yourself would get dirty and pigs would be happy for any attention they get.
Who is who of HairLossTalk.com is on this thread and severely disappointed to read most of the stuff. I guess it's better not to interact much here. Being negative is one thing but its getting bloody poisionous here now a days. I thought we have bunch of sad & gud people here but no they are not sad they are sadistic

 

[blackg]

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Your illustration skills need a bit of work, mate.

 

[Georgie]

And you are supposed to be an intelligent and good guy here huh.
@Georgie please don't clarify yourself & argue with swines , you yourself would get dirty and pigs would be happy for any attention they get.
Who is who of HairLossTalk.com is on this thread and severely disappointed to read most of the stuff. I guess it's better not to interact much here. Being negative is one thing but its getting bloody poisionous here now a days. I thought we have bunch of sad & gud people here but no they are not sad they are sadistic

Lol. I could tell them that I’ve already attempted to harm myself many times but they’d find the joke in that too. No point arguing with people like have 0 conscience.

 

[Georgie]

@buckthorn @Timii @blackg @Fkdup @Afro_Vacancy @shookwun Thank you guys by the way. I needed understanding and support and you have provided that. Much love.

 

[Chromedome1990]

It's alright OP... if your looks go down the toilet, you could always settle for guys with "disfigured" faces

 

[Georgie]

It's alright OP... if your looks go down the toilet, you could always settle for guys with "disfigured" faces

Jump on the beta bandwagon mate, there’s plenty of room.

 

[Chromedome1990]

Jump on the beta bandwagon mate, there’s plenty of room.

No thanks, I'm not desperate enough to white knight for a random woman on the internet.

 

[blackg]

@buckthorn @Timii @blackg @Fkdup @Afro_Vacancy @shookwun Thank you guys by the way. I needed understanding and support and you have provided that. Much love.

That's cool, Georgie. You deserve our support.
Stay strong!

 

[Georgie]

No thanks, I'm not desperate enough to white knight for a random woman on the internet.

But bitter to take a swipe like I personally wounded you. Next.

 

[Baldingat188]

I think sometimes we forget this is hairlosstalk

Not baldtalk

Therefore anyone experiencing hair loss is valid to post here despite how minor you perceive it.

I hate how those of us with early stage hair loss get hated on here. Where else do you think we are supposed to post about it? This is a hairloss forum. And incase you all forgot hairloss is a progressive issue ... that’s why even people with “minor” hair loss are justified to complain and vent on an Internet forum . It’s not attention whoring to vent on an Internet forum . If someone wanted to attention wh*** there are so many better places than a hair loss forum ...

 

[Saurabhaj]

I think sometimes we forget this is hairlosstalk

Not baldtalk

Therefore anyone experiencing hair loss is valid to post here despite how minor you perceive it.

I hate how those of us with early stage hair loss get hated on here. Where else do you think we are supposed to post about it? This is a hairloss forum. And incase you all forgot hairloss is a progressive issue ... that’s why even people with “minor” hair loss are justified to complain and vent on an Internet forum . It’s not attention whoring to vent on an Internet forum . If someone wanted to attention wh*** there are so many better places than a hair loss forum ...

Even a small amount of hairloss fucks up hair style of a person.
I accept this.

Still I will never support a guy doing full blown self loathing at norwood 2/3.

If someone cannot handle hairloss at nw2..
such person can go Insane at norwood 6 in coming years.

Ability to handle hairloss impact is not directly proportional to increasing hairloss.

Mental strength to handle hairloss and stopping falling trajectory of life is difficult to master.
Need extremely positive,sporting attitude,good friend,family circle to beat this.






Avoid self loathing at any cost.

 

[Baldingat188]

Wait until you're bald.

I've been there and I'm telling you, it's not worth agonizing over when you're still very far from being bald.

Once you get there (if you ever get there any time soon in your case), you realize that it's not the end of the world. The very worst case scenario is still manageable, then you still got FUE megasessions, medication, temporary SMP, you'll by no means be doomed forever.

But you know what really makes you feel like sh*t once you become bald? Looking back and realizing you were a giant pussy for agonizing over a NW2, realizing you could have still taken advantage of your youth, but you didn't.

There are no two ways about it, you have to force yourself, to date, to go out, to socialize, no matter your Norwood status, only then will you realize that almost nothing has changed, especially with a f*****g thick NW1.5 head of hair, or a NW2, or a thick NW3, because barely anyone notices. You're a fullhead in the eyes of the world and will remain so for many, many years to come.

Sorry, going full @Exodus2011 here, but come on now, don't let your BDD consume you, don't let it ruin your youth, get a psychologist ASAP and start working on your issues, right now. From the moment you're not doing anything to improve your situation, you lose your right to complain, that's how I see it anyway.

I definitely agree with what you are saying and I do make a conscious effort to let hair loss affect me as little as possible. Granted I wear hats a lot but I also use dating apps and try to put myself out there just because I know I will have an even harder time in the future once my hair loss is noticeable

To be honest when I am bald I will probly be mad at myself for obsessing about my hair loss at early stage but that still doesn’t change how I feel now. The amount of time I spend worrying about it goes up and down but it’s always there nagging in the back of my mind.

It’s just the not knowing that consumes me. Not knowing how bad being bald will be , not knowing when I will be bald , ect. I really try to not let it affect me much but sometimes I just can’t help but get consumed by it.